Okay, so I desperately need some new bras, I'm running my current ones ragged with my sometimey exercise routines and my crazy behind work schedules, so I decided to go online to JC Penney to purchase some new ones. So on JCP.com they have this lovely video tutorial on how to figure out your bra size. Currently, I'm wearing a 48DDD, yeah, that's huge, I know. I come from a line of big, butsty, beautiful women, so it's no surprise that I have big breasts, but then I did what the video instructed and I found out that I was wrong! My boobs are even BIGGER than what I expected or thought for all these months, I'm a 46G! What the hell is that?! Are boobs allowed to be that big?! I'm kinda distraught. That's big as hell!

Brittanie

My mom has been telling me that phrase forever! I didn't believe her until earlier this year when I had a boyfriend and every guy was giving me The Eye. It never happened before him, but when we were together, guys wouldn't stop asking me for my number and flirting with me, that was weird. Anyway, so then when we broke up, of course the flirting stopped, the numbers stopped, so eHarmony.

So I got on eHarmony and was bored out of my mind, until I met Dewayne. Dewayne lives in Baltimore and is an absolute sweetheart. I love his energy and who he is as a person. He's a really great guy and I like talking to him. We're still in that getting-to-know-you phase and I'm loving it. He's interesting and ambitious and he is God-fearing. He's pretty amazing, but just when things are getting good...Chris decides to show back up. Chris called me last week saying that he was on my side of town. Chris has some nerve! I was at church at the time, so it was my option to call him or not, I decided not to call him back. He disappears for months and then he comes back wanting to hang out, who does that?

So last night, he called again, saying that he was on my side of town again, so I let him come over, just because I wanted to know what was wrong with his crazy ass. So he and his friend Tennison came over and hung out for a minute. He was like "Britt, it's so good to see you girl!" and gave me a hug and kissed my cheek. He and Tennison came in for a minute and he came in and claimed that he was just soooooo busy over the past couple of months that he just couldn't call me or text me. I rolled my eyes and told him not to give me that bullshit and he was like I know it sounds like a bad excuse, but it's true. I still think he's totally lying, but I do believe that he missed me. Tennison was going hard for his friend though, he was like "Britt, this guy really likes you, but he's afraid of committment. He really cares about you, but doesn't know how to show you." I'm not sure how to feel about that. I don't know what to do now, because he kissed me and made me feel amazing and made me miss him a little bit.

But he also made me mad because he was definitely molesting my ass two feet away from both my mother's room and my grandmother's room and then his friend went outside and he definitely pulled off my bra and was doing some things to me that I didn't need done, but loved anyway and I hated that I was loving it. I hate when he makes things that should be bad, feel so damn good. Asshole! I'm so confused! I'm L.O.S.T.! Damn him. Stupid boys!

Brittanie